The one with the challenge

Holly sets herself a challenge. Ross and Chandler are busy making dinosaur puppets. Phoebe discovers she is really a vampire.


Yeah I just made myself part of the cast of friends, what of it?

So, as I wrote...yesterday? Was it? Well whenever it was, I made myself a dating profile. I've filled it all in. I TRIED to make it sound appealing. Mr J says its good, and if he thought it was crap he would tell me 'cause Mr J is a nice man who wants me to find a nice boyfriend (or girlfriend)!

But I hear what you're all shouting. "Holly" you cry "Holly. You are to much of a scaredy cat to go on a date with someone". To which I say, "Yes probably!". But that wasn't the point...well it's a little bit the point. Well actually it is a LOT of the point. I don't like the idea of dating but I have to be realistic, the chances of me waking up next to the guy of my dreams tomorrow is pretty slim (that or I have a very sad life ahead of me with the dinosaur cushion!).

So anyway, it's all filled out, I uploaded a picture and answered a bunch of questions. Now so far I've had quite a few views. Which is good, because it means that so far at least 100 people with basic accounts have seen the picture it shows them and thought 'eh, she's kind of cute'. Frankly these people could have exceptionally low standards, I don't care, for two reasons.

1. It proves that SOME people like how I look
2. It proves that at least 100 people either thought I was a cis-female or didn't care.

Which is excellent. I have stated pretty clearly that I am trans, pre-everything in the profile because frankly I can do without messaging people who disappear when they find out. I'd rather have it out of the way.

The first person that viewed my profile, actually appeared to be a damned good match. He even 'liked' my profile.  For some reason the site tells you they liked it but doesn't tell you what rating the gave it out of 5, so frankly I have no idea...I assume if it was low it wouldn't be liked? I might have to test it! Well anyway I liked his profile back and basically told myself that I didn't expect a message. Probably wise, because I haven't had one.

HOWEVER (and this is the reason this was worth its own blog post) I set myself a challenge. Now I won't lie, because Mr J doesn't like it when I say I didn't want something to happen when secretly I really did and I need to stop doing it. If I am honest, I wanted a message from him. I didn't expect one, but it would have been nice. I have NO idea what I would have done, but still, it would have been nice. But after waiting for some time I set myself a challenge. If I want that message so bad, I have to send one to him!

Then I chickened out.


Fortunately I did whatever the female equivalent of 'growing a pair' is and sent him a message! Nothing much, just saying hi and asking if he wanted to message me at some point. I don't imagine he will, and if he doesn't, it's not the end of the world, because at least it proves that I CAN do it if I want to. Of course the harder part is keeping that going and/or finding people to actually message, but one step at a time!

So yeah, go me! Dating pro!