Completion!

In which I explain the reasons for the stupid grin covering my face.


This morning has been rough. I went to bed late (which is my own fault). I've had a migraine since about 1am. I've barely slept. I've been vomiting. Me head, eyes, neck hell even my TEETH hurt. I've got a really bad cold. My voice is deeper than ever. My dog ate the last part of my shoes so now I've had to buy new ones. A rough morning.

But still I'm sitting here with a smile the likes of which has never been seen on my face before. I can FEEL the smile in my eyes. For someone who has suffered depression for their entire life its a strange and wonderful feeling.

Why am I smiling? Because today I'm a step closer to completion. Today I got a parcel!


I saved it until last. I opened a couple of hair bands and a signed book insert for Neil Gaimans 'Fortunately The Milk' but I left this one until last. I knew what it was already. In the box sat a pair of breasts! (GASP. SHOCK HORROR SHE SAID BREASTS OMG!).

I'm not sure how to wear them. They don't fit right in this bra. They look a bit funny if they move the wrong way. They're not perfect, but they're mine and it feels wonderful! If I wasn't sure before, I'm sure now. This is how I am supposed to be.

Hopefully I can figure out how to make them look right before I need to go anywhere! But until then I can wear them around my home and just feel good about myself!

Holly.  xx

PS. If anyone knows how the heck bras or makeup works please tell me 'cause it confuses the hell outta me! :D